We all have flaws right? ***My flaw was a medical mystery for many years*** Until TODAY!
[ Please take time to read EVERYTHING about this post!]
I have been to countless doctors and dermatologists that just couldn’t figure out why my knuckles and feet have been progressively darkening and changing texture since I was a teenager!
Frustrated! My self-esteem took a HUGE hit which could explain my lack of motivation for the past few years.
I was made fun of by someone I cared so deeply for which led me down a road of negative decision-making and mistakes that I now frown upon. BUT! With the motivation and constant encouragement of my AMAZING parents, I contacted the Doctors TV Show in hopes to maybe I could get a diagnosis on my worsening condition. I went all the way to California to experience this!
Here’s a PART 1 of the clip. I will post the rest of the clip soon.
I have a condition where my knuckles and feet produce a thick extra layer of tough skin that was onset by puberty.
***THERE IS NO cure for this condition!!!*** The best solution thus far is opting for bleaching creams to lessen the BLACK shiny look on the surface of my skin.
Not only do I have discoloration, the skin on my knuckles AND feet are growing extra layers. It has gotten worse in the past three years, and sadly, it will continue to grow UNLESS I continue to search for a cure which they say doesn’t exist…
Texting in public, holding the rails on NYC subways and even going to get a mani and pedi at nail salons gives me ANXIETY!
Although my condition is not contagious, nor does it itch, it worries me that once I get on the journalism platform, people will mock me because of my condition. Trust me people in media can be vicious.
I chose the Doctors TV Show because they are a team of professional experts in the medical field. Not only that, I used their platform to put my flaw on full blast in hopes that maybe there are others who have this RARE condition. There is comfort in numbers.
I used to be a Biology major years ago because I wanted to find out what was forming on my skin. But I bravely decided to switch gears and try JOURNALISM which was always my PASSION. Life influences our decisions doesn’t it??
I still wonder if this condition will go away by some act of GOD!? But until then, I only have one life to live, why hide under a rock?
All in all, everyone has insecurities. Some people’s flaws are worse than others. I feel slightly relieved that I have a diagnosis which can bring me one step closer to fixing this condition.
This condition will not deter me from fulfilling my dreams of becoming a media professional. Yeah it saddens me that there’s no cure, but at least I have good health and ambition to continue with my endeavors.
Society and people can be cruel. If you’ve ever been made fun of or looked at strangely than you understand my frustration.
I will post the rest of the video where The Doctors explain this condition along with my actual diagnosis.
I have managed to hide this from my friends for a LONG time! Notice that even in my pics I’ve learned how to strategically cover up my fingers and toes?
***Take a look through my FLICKR photos and even many of FACEBOOK pics (located on the left side of my blog)***
Since this is NOT something I have control over, I have trained my mind to overlook what some deem as a FLAW. I thank God everyday for my parents! They are so supportive and it is with their constant reassurance that I have come out to share this which I second guessed as I flew from JFK airport to LAX airport in California just a few weeks ago.
Life goes on. If you have a medical condition that you can’t figure out, ask questions! Don’t just settle for the first diagnosis they give you. Get as many sources to compare your condition to.
You! YES YOU! that made fun of my knuckles and feet, your words haunt me NO LONGER! I cared for you flaws and all, I’ve carried that heartache and burden and low self-esteem long enough and today I revealed it. I feel GREAT and your words have no shackles on my mental state. You laughed hysterically back then remember? LOL, I will have the last laugh! Don’t believe me? Just watch!!